10/5/21

Well, it's October 5th.  This is my one year anniversary.  Pretty sad anniversary, tho.  I found the swollen lymph node one year ago today.  My Epic Adventure began on that day.  I had absolutely no idea what my next year would be like.  It's a good thing, I reckon, because I don't believe I would have made the same decisions.  Let that sink in.

My life has changed drastically.  Forever.  Without my missing 43 lymph nodes, I am sorely restricted with the things I can do.  It's truly unfortunate and it brings my spirits down - sometimes in leaps and bounds.  I take 14 different medications every single day, many of them twice a day.  That doesn't include creams and eye stuff.  That's just oral medications.  I try to keep my attitude up as much as I can.  Some days, I'm just not that strong.  The good days are what keeps me going.  That, and the promise of a somewhat decent retirement with David.  I feel so sorry for him.  He's healthy and can go and do so many things, and I will hold him back from enjoying many of those things.  He won't do them alone, and I understand.  I try and get him to do things with his friends and our family as much as possible so he's not just sitting here with me.  This is certainly not what we bargained for when we retired.  Oh, well, we have no voice in the matter.  It's out of our hands, and has been for quite a while.  We are not in control as much as we'd like to be sometimes, but we will make the best of our situation.  I need to practice more patience in my life.  My middle name is not Patience, and no one has ever accused me of having too much of it.  This is an exceptional day.  I'm still alive a year later, aren't I?  It was a battle, for sure, and I have a long ways still to go, but I'm getting better each day.  Stronger, not quite so tired, and looking forward to some new adventures soon.

Life is short.

If you can't laugh at yourself, call me.

I will.


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